Very Sad

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Yesterday I saw some friends in their yard shooting fireworks, so I stoppedto talk for a minute. I haven't seen them in years, and one of them is the sister to my best friend from highschool and my first couple years of college, who was also the first boy I ever loved. After catching up a little, I asked about him, and it turns out that he passed away from a heart attack at age 34 in March. He was engaged to be married that Saturday. They were able to tell most of our friends, but weren't able to reach me to let me know. I haven't seen him in at least 5 years, but I have so many good memories of him and he was such a big part of my life for 8 years, so it was a shock and I'm pretty upset.
Usually when someone close to me has died I've been able to go to a funeral or visitation or something to have a chance to say goodbye or get closure, but it happened months ago so I can't. Had I known, I probably would have sent flowers or something. I'm thinking of making a donation to the American Heart Association in his memory or something like that. What do you think?