Should I re-rush

[hawaiianstarlet]

I was givin a bid last year to a sorority that I wasn't entirely inlove with, and was forced to depledge two weeks before getting intiated. Granted i gradually came to love the house, it was apparently fated that I wasnt supposed to be there. The house (xyz) that I really really wanted to be in I loved durring rush, and was unfortunately dropped by the third night, and regretfully as ked back to two houses whom I really did not like at all. I still really want to be part of the XZY but I dont know if I can go through the rejection again, nor do I was the pressure of taking a bid from a house that i have luke warm feelings for. Any help would be amazing.

PS i also dont want to be asked back to those other houses, granted the girls were nice, but I just didnt feel comfortable. I dont want to be mean to them in anyway, but is there a way to avoid being asked back?