returning pnm

[carolinepnm]

I decided to go through formal recruitment at my university my freshman year. My school uses a computer based system and pretty much the computer has been known to withdraw girls at random. This happened to me. I was so nervous to rush but became so excited to find my home. I went through sisterhood night and I became withdrawn the morning of Philanthropy night. This experience completely changed how I envisioned how my college experience would go and honestly I felt as if no sorority wanted me. I had great connections with all the girls I met. This experience completely crushed me. I am going into my sophomore year and decided to go through recruitment again. Should I ask for letters of recommendations? What can I do to really stand out and get a bid from any house? Do you think rushing last year will somehow impact me deciding to rush again this year? I want to be apart of a sorority and I don't want anything on my part to be the reason no house will want to select me.