Life-changing decision...ladies, what would you do?

[cali_girl]

This is my first post to the forum although I have been reading other members' posts for months. I would like to know what you would do if you were in the situation I am currently in.

For three years I was in a serious relationship with a man. We talked about marriage, kids, and often had conversations about how we would spend the rest of our lives together. Then one day this March he broke off the relationship out of nowhere leaving me heartbroken. He said that he still wanted to be friends but that he needed some time to himself. He said that while he didn't want to date other people, he needed some time away from the relationship. We kept in close contact and weeks later we became intimate again. I believed we were on the road to reconciliation until he introduced me to one of his family members as a "friend".

From that point on I had no intent of sleeping with someone who I loved, but who only considered me a friend. Days later I suspected that I was pregnant. He went with me to a clinic where my pregnancy was confirmed. He made it clear that he wasn't going to marry me because he had not sorted out in his mind how he truly feels about me. At first he encouraged me to get an abortion, then he said that he still loves me and would support the child if I decided to keep it.

I'm 22 years old. I planned to attend graduate school in the fall while he will be in another region of the country in law school. In a couple of years I'll be able to support a child, but right now I have no income. My parents are trying to be supportive but it would be a financial strain on them no doubt. One of the most important plans for my life was to get married some day and have a family. But I don't think there are men my age who would be attracted to a woman with a child, so my hopes of getting married are gone.

At this point I feel like my young life is over before it really got started. I used to feel strongly that abortion was wrong because it was killing a baby to pay for your mistake. Now I'm starting to think about it. If I had one, then I could get my life back and continue with my dreams for the future. I pray daily for God to help me make a decision.

I don't know if any of you have ever been in this situation, but I would like to hear your viewpoints on this situation. What would you do?