[LouisaMay]

Hi, everybody!
I'm just really feeling down about the end of my AI search. This is something that meant SO MUCH to me. I still read the AI board all the time, and I am cheering every AI-hopeful on as she makes her quest. I called it quits because I'm now a mom-to-be, and I actually feel REALLY guilty for even wishing that I could go on with my pursuit. I feel like, by continuing, I'm saying that being a Mom isn't fulfilling enough. But I can't erase the desire I have to give of myself to an organization that supports the development, education, and ambitions of young women. But will I have anything left to give once the baby comes? Do I even have the right to give time to a GLO that should be given to my family? Ahhh...as you can see, this has been difficult.

I was so sad when all contact seemed to come to an end between me and "Little Women." Things had been going so well...then nothing. But I accepted that some paths come to an end (and in the back of my mind, I thought that the trail might warm up in time). Long before I officially embarked upon the AI journey, I had made a list of organizations that fit my personal ideals, and I am sure that these groups, like Little Women, have something that makes them uniquely special. Now, even if I did decide to stay in the game and look into these groups, would a GLO even want me...a new mother?

Oh well...I guess I'm just venting. I can't help that a little jealousy came through when I saw several women finding their homes. I remember coming into college with this wonderful image of Greek Life, and even as a newbie, I knew that the aspect of sorority life that would mean the most to me was the lifelong commitment and the far-reaching bonds. I was never in it, primarily, for the college experience, and now, I feel like I won't have a chance at any experience at all.

Okay...I'm done whining!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LM

P.S. As far as I know, the "Little Women" alumnae group still has my contact info, letter of interest, etc. There just hasn't been any forward motion in a long, LONG time. Despite the quiet, there is still so much to love about this organization, and I guess that is part of my disappointment right now.