[amycat412]

I found out when my alarm went off at about 645 am California time. What I heard was "The World Trade center has apparently been attacked by terrorists"

I sat up and screamed.

As I mentioned before, I work for a division of Cantor Fitzgerald and our offices were in tower 1 of WTC on the 101, 103, 104 and 105th floors.

My boss, who I am good friends with, usually works out of the 105th floor of WTC.

So I ran to living room, turned on TV and called my Dad, who gets to work early and asked him what happened.

And I was HYSTERICAL, thinking Brian was there. HYSTERICAL for all my co-workers.

But my asst. called about 30 minutes later to tell me Brian was in LA -- I had been out of town on Monday, so didn't know.

But still, not one Cantor employee that was at work that morning has been found alive, or found to have escaped.

Out of 1000 people, we only have found 300.

And I am still in shock and still cannot believe all that has happened, is happening. I feel so deeply for the families and friends of the victims and for the survivors as well and what they are going thru.

This is such a horrible tragedy and I still keep wanting to wake up and find out it was a nightmare and that life has returned to normal, that the people I talk to and email with every single day, that the rest of my department are still with us. I am, so far, the sole remaining member of my department in all of Cantor and that is something I am having a very hard time coming to terms with.

I know we are all affected by this, I am sorry to rant on about my sorrows.

I just can't believe this.

Amy