Hotep Brothers. "Heartbroken one" you stated a rather intriguing and defensive response to the ADVICE that you was given by ALPHAS and various other D9 (elite 8 in my day) members. Your ambition, determination, and drive as so stated insofar as your interest in a great fraternity is to be lauded; but sadly I stand on MY VIEWPOINT, that your written attestment as best reflected by YOUR TONE clearly is indicative of many of TODAY'S membership comprising up of the "new wave" boat members of BLACK FRATERNITIES & SORORITIES. I truly believe it to be no laughing matter when someone expresses interest in joining ALPHA PHI ALPHA FRATERNITY, INC. I would NEVER vouch for a one who is without HUMILITY (something that a few of MY FELLOW ALPHA BROTHERS might perceive you to be w/out & lacking as shown your post). Your seeking ALPHADOM might pose to be quite difficult if you step to the BROTHERHOOD the way in which your defensive tone so appeared to be. You can choose to interpret the vibe of this post however you want. I post in peace, and I am suggesting that you HUMBLE yourself to LISTEN, and interpret reasoning given you by bonna fide members of ANY ORGANIZATION that you are so interested to join. Years ago there were "SMOKERS" whereby you would be DISMISSED in less than THREE MINUTES if you came to MY BROTHERS w/such a PISS POOR attitude. Your attitude is privy to being perceived as "PISS POOR" by those who are on the SIDE you are "trying" to get to. Humble yourself and do what you can to prove them wrong and maybe just maybe you will be granted the honor of "EARNED" membership. Good luck in your endeavor to pursue ALPHADOM.