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in real life i am private person and reserved when it comes to talking about my relationship, but thanks to GC it seems like maybe i cant vent a little
last night the voices in my head were telling me i needed to break up with my boyfriend... and we sat down and talked about all the little things that have come to carry so much weight in our relationship. in the end we did break up. so far i am doing well, i actually got good sleep, so many things had been on my mind lately i was sleeping over it. him and i were friends almost two years before we 'got together', over that time we became almost best friends, we've shared good, bad, awesome times together and with friends, we shared conversations about past relationships and about almost everything under the sun, and we became almost inseperable. we dated 1 1/2 years but in the last couple months we started to fight over the most irrelevant things. now that we are broken up, i know that being friends isn't going to be impossible. but to be honest, it is killing me inside. we had previous plans for this week with friends, family and ourselves and the intention is to keep those plans, but be friends. i am just about to go absolutely insane missing him in that sense. he's called me twice today to check up on me and in one way it's fine, but i am dreading the day that i dont get those calls and we stop making plans. he's told me that he wants me in his life as long as now and in the future, because we were friends long before and we can appreciate each other in that way. i feel the same way and i'm grateful already for the things i know i am going to get out of this break up. being together in the future is not out of the question but of course,theres no way to know. I want to know if there's anyone out there who has ever been in my situation? any 'good' advice is appreciated.
on a lighter note, i am also FABULOUSZETA on this GC. I made the mistake of changing my email and i never recieved a confirmation e-mail, now i'm unable to post or PM... if anyone can help me on that end, i'd appreciate your time and attention.
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