I completely agree with what OTW and others have said: I AM a little sad that you're gay. But, it's only for selfish reasons
I am very sorry to hear about what's been going on for you. I know it must really hurt to see your Alpha brothers treating you this way.
I just wanted to echo what others have been saying in that you are one of the finest (*double entendre here*) examples of what a fraternity man SHOULD be like.
I honestly had no idea that you are gay until I read this thread. But, it doesn't change the fact that I think you are one hell of a great guy and one of my favorite Greek Chatters. Keep your chin up. There are a LOT of people here who have your back should you ever need it.