[pearls]

I agree very much with Love Spell about God asking you about the number of souls that you led into His kingdom. I'm glad of that reminder myself.
We are to do things which glorify Him and not necessarily a GLO. and as you know, we are to love Him because it's not about the "works". All good things come from Him and we are to acknowledge that. It seems that if all credit is given to GLO's then people may not see Christ and give Him credit. We were made in His image, so all of the great things that we do represent His handiwork, but we have to verbally say it because people will think we/ they are doing everything on their own and we/they don't need Him. Some people feel that there is alot of self-glorification and pride going on within many community service groups. How does God feel about excessive pride?
This topic is very interesting and very controversial. I know that the Bible states that you should seek Godly counsel. That is what I think that you should do. If you know a minister or pastor who can refer you to more scriptures (because you should read it for yourself) then that will help.
Also, you can pray, fast, study the Bible, and ask for guidance.
Other people that I think would be good to talk to would be people that are very knowledgeable about the Bible, and have other sources of information. They may be in some of these groups: Seventh Day Adventists, members of (something like this) the Hebrew Israelites, Black Muslims, and Christians. I mentioned the Adventists and the (something like that) Hebrew Israelites and Black Muslims because these are movements. Although I think that you should refer to the Bible, some of them seem to use some other resources, they can provide you with personal, instructional, as well as Biblical principles on these issues which might convinct you.
Family members of mine are separated on this issue. Personally, I truly felt that it would be ok for me to join AKA, and I felt that it would bring me closer to God, and I still have a ways to go. I did not understand why, but it was a conviction. Many of my sorors are church members and I attended a church service with them today, as a matter of fact, prior to a special event.
In my opinion, God must be trying to reach you.
Alot of times people say that others can see the Christ in you through your lifestyle, and the Bible refers to Christians possessing the fruit of the spirit. If you do become an Alpha, people will see who you worship by your attitude and actions, and when they inquire about it, you've got to let them know. Best wishes, and I hope you'll let me know what you hear. I'd like to know.