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Originally posted by pearls
I'm surprised that I am that I am even responding to this, but there was something in your writing that told me I must. I read a few of your pieces thinking that you should be careful, but after I saw the part about your scare, I felt that I had to tell you to be cautious. You should really think about using protection. There are sooooo many different types of std's.
One day, you will settle down and if you are stuck with a disease you will feel so sorry. You could fall in love and be rejected by someone who doesn't want to run the risk of being with someone with warts, herpes or whatever else. AIDS is killing so many people. You should consider quitting, or at least using protection. You can even be free from those urges to have sex. Are you really happy, or are you missing something? Believe it or not, you won't feel the same way about dating and sex forever, but you don't want to be ruined for life. Even the curable std's can destroy friendships. Be careful.
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Thanks for the response although it wasnt what I was looking for. About the protection thing, I quit using condoms a long time ago...like 6 years ago. That said, I'm beyond the point of no return. At this point I just dont give a fuck anymore. If something goes wrong I'll let the clinic handle it. Yea, sometimes I did lose sleep at night but you get over it in time. I've come to look at life as if you're here one day and gone the next. Death is just another part of life and I'm not afraid of dying or muchless anything. I don't know if this train of thought comes from me having so many people close to me in my life die or what, but I don't fear death or things that are associated with it such as AIDS. I believe in seizing the day and living life as if it's your last. Sure, I plan for the future and my life later on down the road. But to be honest, I dont want to live to 60,70 or 80 years old and living off of prescription drugs and not being able to do much. To be honest I didn think I'd make it to 25. With the type of person I am and the personality I have, I'm as good as dead (inside) when I hit 60+ years old. I want everything life has to offer and experience those things while I'm still here on this planet. Next year I could develop cancer and die in 6 months or I could get in a car accident tommorrow (knocks on wood) and be paralyzed or even die. I could get mugged and accidently shot a week from now. Nobody knows whats going to happen to them. Two days ago I saw a semi-trailer about 100 yards or 30 seconds driving distance behind me flip three time, go across 4 lanes of interstate traffic and land on the otherside of the interstate into the northbound traffic. I was beside that semi less than a minute before it happened. I saw it all happen in my rear view mirror. I was driving next to that semi before hand for about a good 2 minutes or so and decided to speed up because Avril Lavigne's song came on the radio. And this isnt the first time some shit like this has happened to me. The same thing happened about 4 years ago only I was actually between the two semi-trucks when the one ran into the median railing before it flipped. I did a 180 and my car went up on two wheels and I was in the middle of the interstate....all because some ducks decided to cross the interstate and a trucker tried to not hit them. When I was 19/20 years old back in 99' I almost died in a hospital. I was in the DJ booth with DJs Baby Anne and Debbie D in Gainesville @ SIMONS.....they had some really strong GHB. I drank too much of it and didnt know you arent supposed to be taking shots of 100 proof vodka when you do that stuff. Last thing I remember was it being 1:00am, I was in the DJ booth with the two of them and then I felt like I had to sit down. Next thing I know I wake up around 8:00am, I'm in the hospital strapped down to a bed in leather straps and I had a tube coming out of my dick while an IV was in my arm. The doctors told me I knocked one of the nurses out and broke another doctor's nose. I had two GPD police officers standing at the end of the bed waiting to question me.....it was the scariest thing in my life. They had no identification of me, didnt know anything about me and called me John Doe. Luckily one of my friends took all my stuff before I got in the ambulance so they wouldnt know who I was. Luckily I was smart enough to give both the police and doctors a social security number and name of a buddy of mine back home that way I wouldnt get kicked out of school, taken to jail or billed for the hopsital stay and ambulance ride. I walked to a friend of mines house which was 2 blocks from the hospital I was at and called my roomates to come get me. Believe me, I should have died several times. All I can say is I'm here for something important....what it is I dont know. I don't believe in chance or coincidences.....not in the world we live in today. The last thing I'm worried about is catching some STD. All of them except HPV (herpes,warts etc) and HIV/AIDS can be cured with pennicillin. Warts can be burnt off and there's stuff to surpress herepes. If you catch AIDS you're a gonner but usually with the drugs out today you'll have a while to prepare for death. We all have a number and when its up its up. Obviously mine isnt up yet or else I would have been dead long ago. Hell, I practically died when I was born. I was born 1 1/2 months early and my lungs hadnt fully developed yet. I was in an incubator for 6 weeks before my mother could touch me for the first time. Like I said, i dont fear death or the obstacles life throws at me. What makes me the man I am is how I respond to what happens to me. If I catch something I'll deal with it just like everything else life has thrown my way. Yea, I may seem like my heart is hard or I'm bitter....but Ive seen a lot of bad shit in life. Bad shit happens to people all the time, its apart of life. When you look at the grand scheme of things STDs are a small matter. Our bodies are so fucking fragile, more people died from the Spanish Flu in the early 1900s than all the people in World War I and World War II combined. I'm not really worried about destroying friendships over STDs. Besides, who really fucks their friends anyways unless they're gay? I don't deny my view on sex and dating will change eventually but my beliefs are going to stay the same. I'm too much of a strong minded individual to be easily persuaded into believe something that I dont already believe in at this point in my life. Especially when I believe the only reason to settle down and marry is solely for the purpose of having kids. Other than having children there's really no point in getting married. You don't need a piece of paper telling you that you love someone and if you leave someone because you got an std from them or they leave you because you gave them one...then they didnt truly love you. My father gave my mother something.....and they dealt with it together and got rid of it. She knew he had something when they were dating. But she truly loved him and overlooked it. So, don't play that card of you wont be able to marry and have kids if you catch something because thats your issue and not everyone else's.
Cashmoney
ETA: Condoms don't stop the passing of the AIDS/HIV virus anyways.