[sageofages]

Sounds to me a little bit like you are afraid of being alone, getting to know yourself in the "discomfort of quiet" (as the Iowa Teacher of the Year calls it). I think it is pretty unhealthy and perhaps a bit self flagellating to hang out with people you don't like. What kind of benefit do you get from martyring yourself for a relationship that is positive?

WHAT IS THE POINT? Life is just too short and the world is full of good people worthy of being friends with....go find them!