[AKA_Monet]

Dearest PM_Mama00,

You cannot begin to entertain a new relationship with anybody worthy of your love until you let go of this one...

Even if you have imaginary wedding fantasies with this boy, there is no way he will ever be able to fulfill them and neither does he want to...

And to me, he is not a man because a man would not have the need to do this to a woman. So to me, he is just a boy getting his kicks off... And you are his toy he uses to masterbate on...

But, there is no way you can re-create this person to be the man you have always dreamed of... And like RUGreek said, this is about "control"... And IMHO, you are trying to do that too... You know you cannot control him. But he can control you and bend you to do his bidding... Push your buttons, so to speak...

And like others have stated, you are getting the "control-something" you want out of the relationship by the "attention-something" you are trying to get... That is why you are having "leaving problems"...

You will never be capable of leaving this boy until you relenquish and surrender your "perceived control"... And doing that is just the first baby step...