Ok so I feel kinda bad posting something as trivial as this after all these posts about loved ones dying, but I've been dating this guy for 3 months and I mean I really thought he was "the one." He's got just about everything I've ever looked for in a guy. He's older than me, good looking, has a good job, educated, funny, wants a family, serves in a ministry, is the same "brand" of Christian that I am, and some other things that were very specific. Well, I thought things were going great........but Sunday he told me that he thinks I'm beautiful and smart and funny and wonderful and pretty much everything HE is looking for, but he just doesn't see this going anywhere.

I was pretty shocked and haven't fully recovered. It was so hard to go to church on Wednesday because for the first time in 2 months I didn't sit with him and I barely had a chance to talk to him. His mom came up and gave me a really big hug and said everything would be ok, but I dont know. It's hard to sleep at night when you've talked on the phone every night before bed for the last 3 months and now you don't. Anyway, I'm just sad, confused, and a little hurt by the whole thing. He says he must be crazy and that he doesn't want to break up, but he feels like it is the right thing to do. Sigh. He said he's sorry because he knows what it's like to have more feelings for someone than they have for you ( did I mention he's a TINY bit arrogant

) but it wasn't any easier for him. Whatever, I go between anger and sadness daily, so we'll just see how it all pans out. Thanks for listening........