Quote:
Originally posted by AlphaSigLana:
I feel so depressed. I wish i were dead. I hate my life. I hate myself most of all. this past year at college Ibegan to binge eat , but I sought help, but it is starting again. Tonight I was craving something sweet so i went ot DQ. Well who was in front of me, but a girl from the hs i went to my freshman year. SHe was miss popular and she is even prettier now. She was there with her boyfriend. I felt like a loser for going to DQ by myself and fat so I decided to go to TCBy. Well a girl who is younger than me from the high school Iwent to works there. I'm sure she was thinking i was pathetic for going to get ice cream by myself especially when i am fat anyway. I am so ugly. I am plain too. I am not very smart or creative so i don't know why God created me when i have nothing going for me. I just needed to get this all out.
|
God created you because He has a purpose for you. Remember, he knew you before the earth was formed. So know that, ok?
Secondly, so what if you're fat? So what if you're plain? So what if you aren't the smartest or most creative? YOU ARE YOU AND YOU ARE THE ONLY YOU THERE IS!!! YOU ARE UNIQUE!! And what's wrong with being plain? I say simple is more sophisticated. Do YOU really think that you are ugly? Is that really what YOU believe? Or is that what other people have said? Or are you basing what you look like on how you THINK you should look, based on OTHER PEOPLE'S B.S. (Belief System)? Tonight, I want you to go and look in the mirror (naked) and love what you see. Don't think about what other people see when they look at you. LOVE WHAT YOU SEE!! Now, if you see something that YOU don't like, take steps to change it, when YOU are ready to.
Stop basing your outlook on yourself on society's opinions. Look inside yourself and see what YOU like and dislike about you. To hell with what everyone else thinks, they don't pay the bills, and they don't lay down with you at night. Only you can be good to you. And only you can validate you.
Start saying WITH YOURSELF instead of BY YOURSELF. Start doing things WITH YOURSELF that you like to do. Get to know YOU better. You'll see that there's nothing wrong with doing things WITH yourself. In fact, you might get stingy with your time, and end up ENJOYING the time you spend WITH yourself.
Something else I do when I'm down. Take out a sheet of paper and list your blessings. I know it sounds corny and cliche, count your blessings, but believe me, your tears or sorrow will turn to tears of joy when you are finished. Count EVERYTHING that you could be without. Count your family, your friends, the roof over your head, the car you drive, if you don't have a car, count the feet you walk on (everyone wasn't blessed with them), count all of your blessings. I bet you'll find you have more to smile about than you do to frown about.
Email me if you need to. Prayer said.