Meredith -
You can apply for early alumna status - who told you that you couldn't? As long as you were in good standing with the chapter the last semester you were in school, you should be eligible.
As far as who you have heard from - it could be that people don't know why you aren't around, or have heard a rumor, or any one of a number of things. They could also be afraid to contact you for fear that you will reject
them.
Sweetie - I've been where you are at. In some ways I'm still there. You need to get professional help from a therapist. I started seeing one this summer and it's made a huge and positive difference in my life. It really has. Don't wait until you are married, with a child and at a huge crisis point before you do something. There is no shame in asking for help. It is hard to do, so very hard, but in the end you will see how worth it it is. Have the last 14 years really been so great that you want to live another 14 years feeling the same way?
If you want a positive relationship with your parents, your ZTA sisters, your boyfriend and with yourself (that's the most important one), then you need to bite the bullet and make the phone call. Please...a lot of people care about you and want you around for a long, long time to come.
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Originally posted by ZTABullwinkle
Just wanted to update everyone....I have been having a VERY rough few months. Even though I didn't return to school (which is a good thing, thanks to my knee) this semester ~ I hear from ONE of my chapter sisters. I have been told that I can't go alumna. It is just one thing after another.
My boyfriend who is VERY supportive puts up with my severe mood swings, because he knows that I can be a better person. To see me have a panic attack and get angry is better than the sad depression.
I have fought the depression for 14 years, and for the FIRST time, my parents asked me to set ground rules so they don't have to go through the bad episodes. So I have no relationship with my parents either.
I know I have mnay shoulders to lean on, but sometimes I think people just get tired of me always complaining or not getting better.
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