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I HAVE been in your situation. I worked for a small ad agency that drained people's talent and energy with poor compensation and concern for their welfare. PM me if you want more details, but I can certainly empathize.
They treat everyone the same? That makes it a toxic environment and people will be leaving left and right (if they aren't already). Same thing happened with my work situation. I ended up quitting without a job to fall back on... and it worked out beautifully. I was so burned out at that point I needed some time off to reflect and get back to my normal happy self! You might, too, and there is no shame breaking a lease and going to stay with relatives for a little while.
Some advice.... what worked for me.
First things first. Write out a list. What are you looking for in a job? Salary, benefits, day-to-day work, the people, etc. Put together your "short list" of the things you need in the workplace to make you happy.
Next, suck it up. Go to work and make it an effort to get their 20 minutes early each morning. As you put your car in park, take a moment to reflect on all the things that are going good in your life (your car is running, you have a roof over your head, food to eat, family and friends who love you, the trust and confidence of your sorority. Take a moment to be thankful for all those good things and take a moment of silence. Ask for the strength to do well at your job today.)
Now that you're at work early, clear any personal stuff. Check email, voicemail, get your coffee.... In effect, take those 20 minutes to wake up. Once others come trailing into the office, you'll be going around and much more productive than they. You'll also get more done in less time.
If your supervisor is checking over your shoulder, you CAN turn around and say nicely, "Excuse me. Was there something you needed?" If she says no, say nicely, "Oh, well you're standing really close to me. It's a little uncomfortable, to be honest."
The next part. Write up your list of complaints about the place and go to your supervisor to request a closed door meeting. Start off by saying, "When I first started working here, I was really grateful for the opportunity. I understand you have placed a lot of time and effort toward training me, in the hopes I would be here for a good amount of time. But lately, there are a lot of things about my work that are making me unhappy and questioning that committment to this place. I think we can work together to solve these things, but I need your help. As my supervisor, can we talk through a few things?" Then you go through your list.
Hey, you're leaving anyway. You might as well make the effort to make the place more tolerable before you quit. You're also going to feel a huge sense of weight being taken off your chest once you get it out. Even the way your supervisor speaks to you. I'd bet money she isn't aware that her tone of voice is coming across as condescending.
I'm sure you're fearful to bring up your unhappiness. But DO IT. What is the worst that can happen? They say, "No, we'll continue to talk to you like you're five years old and we're reducing your salary, too?" They probably don't have any clue as to how unhappy you are because in that industry, it's all about the work, and not about the people. Which is plain wrong, but if you can communicate that the employer-employee relationship isn't working, you will gain some respect.
Good luck. PM me if you need anything. I walked many miles in your shoes... but it does get better. You have to make the change, though. No one can do it for you. And sometimes the thought of change is actually scarier than the actual act of change.
Keep me posted.
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