Nick--thank you so much for your kind email. I have been listening to music, especially soft music, and everything is speaking to me, basically. Just listening to the words--and the majority of the songs tongiht is about hardship--go figure, makes me think about my Grandpa again. Unfrotuatenly, each time I think about him, I just tear up more. I do realize that fate is fate, but you know, I just don't get it why my grandpa had to go through so much, and why my mom has always had the misfortune of being on the plane right before my granpa and granma passed on. Right now--I'm just feeling so doubtful about everything, you know?
I saw an elderly man walk by tonight on the street--and he exactly looked my grandpa. The appearance, the way he walked, everything. I just gulped and tears sstarted flowing. I realize that I will never see him again until I reach heaven myself...that only my memory will serve me well. The only thing is--my memory isn't very good, b/c the last time I saw him was 3 years ago. I just am so afraid that I will forget how he looked, talked, etc. I was just reminiscing tonight about how he was so happy when he saw that my sis and I were happy...how he loved to go to the garden and take care of his "babies," the flowers...and how he always sat in his rocking chair.
Thank you again for listening, Nick--you are truly the best!!!!! I will try to follow what your email said
. Unfortunately--it's finals or bust for me. If i'm not there--well, let's just say that it won't be pretty!
P.S.--I'm really sorry that I couldn't respond to you by email--the reply button was taking a long, long time to connect!
[This message has been edited by newbie (edited May 27, 2001).]