No, no, laugh. Come on, you cant help but see the humor in the situation. I can either be all freaked out, OR I can laugh at how I could get myself into a situation like this, whist I try to figure out a solution. Thats how I deal, obviously through humor.
Anyway, to clarify, It was Tarin's ROOMATE that invited me over for beer. I dont know if it was planned, but I didnt hear any objections raised at the conclusion of dinner, when Adrianna exteneded the invite.
Also, I crashed on the couch alone, and Rob was no the wiser...I dont think...
Apparently they have people over that crash out all the time, so it didnt look out of the ordinary.
gphi2K, put it best. I do need to do what feels best, emotionally. I think I need to let a few weeks pass and see where this takes me, and how I feel. I am one of those who needs time to clarify things. I do a lot of meditation. Helps. That and vodka. Lots. (j/k)
I think I am more attracted to the idea of it all, because when I take a step back, the only attraction I can find, is the riskyness of it all. I am not REALLY attracted to Tarin, but the knowledge that I am attractive and being sought after IS exciting. Geez, this thread has so wound its way back to the beginning. I just wish I didnt have to become a walking object lesson.
Anyway, I totally welcome the thoughts and suggestions. 'Cause all I am gonna get from my brothers is a big ole whew hoo for being so b*llsy! Not so much what I am looking for.
life out