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-Hello Everyone-
Well, I decided to come back and give you guys a bit of a follow up with rush and stuff.
Not getting a bid from the houses that I wanted really sucked for me. I mean, talk about a humbling experience to say the least. You see, I went into rush completely confident in the fact that I would be the one doing all the cutting, and I wouldn't be getting cut. Well, those dreams were quickly shattered when I was cut from 3 of the 15 on the first day, one of which being my top house. Hell, even a house that I was a legacy in cut me!
When I decided to withdraw before the last round, I was pretty damn depressed. I mean, it sucks to know that you're just not "good enough" to be one of "those" guys. At the same time, I was determined to make this experience a good one.
I decided to sit back and take a look at myself and see where I need to make improvements in my life. I mean, let's face it- I'm obviously doing something wrong to make these certain houses cut me. Even though some of the houses called to tell me beforehand what was going to happen, and that it was only due to 1 or 2 guys in the house who weren't going to allow me to be a member.
I figure that everything happens for a reason, and I obviously needed to learn a big lesson in humility and to accept others. I'm a pretty arrogant SOB at times, definately an attitude that needs to be changed.
So, now that I'm not greek, I'm going to take the extra time that I now have to really try and work on "me" and really try to become a better person.
I will tell you this, it sucks pretty bad when you drive by the houses at night and see everyone out in the front yard all dressed up for their exchange...and I'm on my way to go study or something.
In a nutshell, I'm still pretty upset with the way things ended up, but at the same time I'm convinced that some sort of good will come out of it and that there is a reason for it.
Thanks for all the kind e-mails and PM's, you guys have been a great support group. I wish all of you well, and I'll occasionally make a stop by and see how things are going.
LSUTIGAH
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