I'm so sorry you feel this way. I get like that every now and then, feeling invisible to everyone. However, I am starting to realize that my friendliness doesn't always appear friendly to others. For example, I used to take my negative attitude with me everywhere I went. This makes you seem like a really negative person, and people, especially guys, don't want to hang out with a negative person. People want to be around happy people who enjoy others' company. I am not saying you are negative~ I am just sharing my personal experience. It took me a long time to notice how I was, but now that I know, I try to work on how I act. Deep down, I know you have the self-esteem and happiness...we all do. You just have to reach inside yourself and let it shine through. Perhaps keeping a journal every night will help you overcome your problem. That way, you can look back a week later and realize your unhappiness, etc. Start thinking about situations you are in and wonder what conversation went on between people. I don't know what will help you directly, but those things have helped me come a long way with my friendships and personal confidence.
I hope you can work yourself through this and realize that you are an approachable person. We're all here if you need us.
PSLAM,
Jadey
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