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You've been together a year and you aren't in love yet?
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I just don't think a year is long enough when you are so far apart and you only get to see each other every 2 or so months. If we were just an hour or so apart and could be together every weekend it would be different but it's a 16 hour drive. He's been hurt a lot and so have I so I think we are both hesitant to rush things. He takes the time to call me at least once a day (usually 3 or 4 times), he plans a trip down as often as possible, he says a lot of things that DO make me happy. (He even cried over the fact that he wasn't able to make this trip down and he thought I would be mad.) He's a wonderful man. I knew the moment I saw him that I wanted to be with him. I just think being cautious is very important. I am a skeptic when it comes to love. I've been cheated on by someone who told me they loved me (before I did) and I have been cheated on by a man who had told me for 4 years he loved me (4 years before we were even a "real" couple). Then there'e the fact that my brother and ex-sister-in-law were together for 5 years, then married for 17 months and she found someone else, had an affair and left. I just have a hard time understanding love. I KNOW I love him. I care about him. I would never ever hurt him but I am still just very very scared to say it. He and I have talked about his little "mess up" and he admitted it scares him. He says he is worried because he feels it for me but he has felt it before and it didn't work. SO you can imagine how worried he might be. His last girlfriend was long distance and it was over 4 years ago. He has only had 4 girlfriends in his whole life. Only kissed 4 people and only been intimate with 2. His last sexual encounter was in '99. See....I have the proof that he is very slow in relationships. I think a lot of this is I just need to vent. You guys don't really have to reply if you dont want but it helps to get some of this out!!!