aww i totally understand how you feel!! i'm extremely quiet and reserved, definitely not a beauty queen type, and not too big on the self esteem either..but then i think--do i really want to miss out on this great experience? there's so many "what if's"..i know if i don't rush, i will regret it. it's hard for me to open up to people at first and i think that will hurt me during rush, as there is such a small amount of time to get to know the girls..but there's still that little spark of hope in me that says "maybe you will find your home in one of those sororities, and you will never know unless you try!"
rush is also great practice for meeting new people and becoming more comfortable making conversation with them. i want to try to become a little more outgoing and confident..what better time to practice than rush? the girls truly don't want to hurt you--and just because they didn't keep you doesn't mean youre not a wonderful person..i think i have a lot of great qualities (not trying to be cocky!!), but it takes more than 30 minutes of talking to somebody to really come out of my shell..i'm just pretty shy.
but i definitely think you should rush. if nothing else, it will be a tremendous learning experience. rejection hurts, i definitely agree, but if anything, it will help you grow as a person. *hug* good luck
