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It will only be as great to be in that chapter as you help make it. Wishing to have joined another group, while a good thought, won't change the situation. If you get passed up for positions, offer to work as an assistant to that person to learn the position better, so next time you run, you will have experience. If your relationship with your big stinks, make sure when you get a little sister, you learn from that, and have a great relationship. I know my big left school the semester I pledged, and while we were friends, I'm MUCH closer to my little than I ever was to my big. She and I still email and talk and see each other, and we live 2 hours away from each other and I graduated 8 years ago!

Best of luck...