I agree 100% with what everyone else has said. I definitely think you should go into rush with the intent to visit each organization available at least once. I think its the only fair thing to do. I suicided last fall, I know the decision was right for me. I also attended the rush events for other GLO's on my new campus. I wanted to make sure that I chose a GLO based on a good personal fit. IFC rush is different in that they don't require you to attend events held by each fraternity (the way sororities do).
It really doesn't sound like XYZ is your best match. If I were you I would talk to the 2 brothers who your still friends with, and explain that while they are all great guys, you may not be the best match for them. I would also tell them that your considering rushing again and would like to still come to one of there rush events to see if this would work but at the same time you will be looking at other fraternities.
Everyone has doubts initially about where they belong. Sometimes things like this happen for a reason. Maybe it means your not meant to be a member of there organization, but maybe this your chance to try ABC and CDF. This decision is for life, not just your college years. I hope it all works out and you get the right brotherhood for you
