I rushed again as a sophomore and it was a great decision. I was so desperate to fit in (not saying this was your case!) my freshman year that I had a very closed mind and would only give a few houses the time of day. Of course, I ended up getting cut from those houses and the ones that were left, I didn't feel anything. I was calling my parents crying every night. However, I still accepted a bid and spent the entire Bid Day crying my eyes out (I kept telling the girls they were "tears of joy" but they knew I was lying). I decided not to go through with it a few days later and spent the next year figuring things out about myself and what I wanted and I am so glad I got that time. Going into recruitment the second time, I knew what to expect and I knew who I was and was very proud of it. The second time around, I enjoyed myself (and only cried to my parents once
) and had a completely different rush. I was asked back to different houses that I didn't think were "me" and fell in love with three that I had never expected. Fortunately (it didn't seem so at the time), I got cut from two of them and from that point on, I knew where to go. I am so thankful that these girls gave me a second chance because this house has given me so much.
Also, don't be worried about the girls judging you a little bit harsher than everyone else because this is your second time round. If they ask why you are rushing again, answer honestly and be true to yourself. The second time around will be different from the first and you will end up where you are meant to be. It just takes some of us longer to find it. Good luck! I wish you the best!