Girl, believe me when I say, trouble don't last always. I remember dealing with ALL of this. You hate going home because you don't know what's going to be going on. You don't bring friends home because you don't want them to see the chaos that you live in. All the fights and cursing. Police visits on the regular. Then the time that you wish for: quiet, serene, at times even loving. But all that mixed together causes nothing but confusion. You are right, you have two more years, and they may fly by. I agree with CrimsonTide4, you are stronger than you think. Start thinking about what college you will go to (AWAY FROM HOME) and dream about it. Try to find ways to stay gone, as you put it.
And I understand where your sisters are coming from, too. It is the exact reason that I go home less and less these days. Once you are out, you just don't want to invite that type of craziness into your life anymore.
I'm going to pull up a thread for you in the Alpha Kappa Alpha forum.
ETA: Here is the link -
http://www.greekchat.com/gcforums/sh...023#post765023