our recruitment rules are retarded too... I'm not allowed to talk to any females, cause even if I know they're definitely not going through recruitment, it still applies. And that definitely sucks because I never hang out with my sisters (as awful as that sounds) because I'm really not close to them... I think I kinda missed out on the whole bonding thing. I know a lot of girls hang out with each other constantly... and I don't. I know other girls are the same as me, and some broke down at the retreat crying about it... and I really thought that was going to change some things, but it didn't.
Point is, you're not alone with how you feel
