myztical,
So many question! Nobody knows the right answers to anything. Who knows, all this time we think 2x2 is 4, what if it's actually 6? All things that are impossible to answer on the outside, but many of which we can find the answer to on the inside. You just have to have faith in what you believe.
Here's a great link that I think you would enjoy.
http://www.courierpress.com/cgi-bin/....html+20001028