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I read the article about bug-chasing...and more than feeling disgusted, I find it infinitely sad. I think that it is yet another manifestation of this interanalized self-loathing. Why else would someone seek to give this disease to other gay men. The article seems to suggest that this phenomenon is isolated--at this point at least--within the gay community. And to me it seems to suggest that these men and others like them (i.e. homosexual), on some level, don't feel as though they deserve to live healty long lives. The way the article ended with the guy saying that the thought of giving someone HIV was like murdering them does even more to support this interpretation.
Similarly, I have looked at that ebonymale website and my impressions are the same....intense sadness that these men choose to live like this. Some of the guys on the site are openly gay, but many are not. I don't condone those living a DL lifestyle, but now coupled with my anger I feel sad.
Like Iotagirl, this issue scares me. Makes me think more and more about how I am not into the idea of promiscuity ("sexual liberation"), how hard it is to even think about love and romance when your life is always at stake, which makes it difficult to have a relationship...let alone think about physical intimacy.
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