Thank you everyone! i got a call from the Kaiser permentae facility where it will be done at and was told surgery is set for May 21 in fontana.

I am very scared of surgery, but nothing had me more scared than the thought i may have had cancer. Emotionally i think i am doing ok. I have days when i am sad i cant have any more children but in the long run i have been blessed with a wonderful lil boy ...matthew is my world! Plus there are kids who need good homes so if the time is right i may adopt later on downthe road. i have 2 lil girl nieces coming so it gives me some more time with babies even though i dont have to deal with 3 am feedings ...heheh i think i am a tad bit envious of my sister in law and brother but i feel i am 35 and not getting any younger so i am ok with having this surgery. To me having a hysterectomy is taking away any more scares i may encounter down the road. that phone call yesterday .....you dont even know what it felt like....RELIEF!

Sageofages...yes i checked that site out a week or so ago and find it rather useful as for information on everything. i think i have checked it it out daily since i was told i was going to have to have surgery

Laura( bruinaphi) asked if there is anything you can do for me have you all visit me and shower me with attention flowers and candy now that would be a great dose of medicine but prayers from those far and away would be great too.

times like this i am glad i have sisters and really good friends and a great family and i better stop now before is tart to cry

aoe
Laura