mattpike-You are where my son was a while ago. If you feel she's holding you back, then maybe she is. Or, it could be a case of "the grass is always greener..."
After seeing how miserable he was, and how long he stuck it out, I now understand why he was in such a downer mood so often.
She stayed local and called him constantly. Went on line to check out Party Pics. Yelled at him for obligations as a New Member and
threatened-cajoled-you name it. This was not from him, but his friends told me. When he was home on vacation and we were NOT...he had to threaten to have her car towed to get her to leave. This is not the way their relationship started, just the way it ended. Her possessiveness became...rather odd to put it nicely.
You are only young ONCE! If you aren't feeling it as much as you KNOW you should, move on. Sometimes it's easier to let it slide and hope maybe it'll just fizzle out on it's own. Don't use her as a diversion from tedium.
If you are meant to be, a little room to grow and explore what the future holds won't stop it. Once you step outside the comfort zone, so much changes. Sure, not every single thing will be glorious, but unless you do expand, you will absolutely never reach all your potential. I guess I should really throw in-IMO.
