[De6]

I thank you for your advice. I must say that I am blessed to be in such an event...it is a wonderful experience,but my feelings developed:
When my "mentor" first put me in this. I was told that I was going against a bunch of rich girls. That was disproved, once I got to know the girls.
When my "mentor" told me to my face (several times) "You are NOT going to win." She based this off of some girls who go to "elite" private schools...on scholarships. Meaning, if their parents pay, they pay very little. So, your parents barely paying for your private school eduaction makes you rich?
When my "mentor" did not fulfill her mentor duties. She was suppose to help me network. Instead, someone who has been trying to pull out of this thing has been there every step of the way.
My "mentor" has been so focused on the material things and not encouraging me to do my best. I told her that if I was the poorest person in this Cotillion, I should have never known that I was not going to win. Instead, she makes me feel like she is having pity on me. She has told me, "I don't care about your abilities." Well, if you don't care about my abilities, why would you put me in this? I feel that she did this just to receive some kind of recognition from those around. In essence, she did not put me in here for the right reasons. But, you best believe that if I do not win, I can walk away saying I put my heart and soul into this. I said all of this to let you all know that I am not all about the winning. I do realize that the ones who normally win are "rich" or who have parents in a business with a lot of contacts. Therefore, I am not going to kill myself...I am just doing my best. Trust and Believe, I am embracing every precious moment.