i will have to look at your post in more depth and will help you decipher it.... but right now i don't really have time to do that- but i'll get back to you
but- i have had dreams- reoccuring dreams- about my family and thing slike that- my dreams are very vivid- and always have lots of meaning behind them- thats why i'm so good at figuring them out- i always dream about my childhood home and my mom and dad- i have a lot of dreams about family members dying- its one of my greatest fears... so you aren't alone.... as far as losing sleep... it seems like the situation with your dad and your grandfather is very stressful and that prob has something to do with it... have you talked to htem about it? you might be having anxiety (esp with the funeral reference in your dream) abou ttheir sicknesses.... spend as much time with them as possible... do you have any unresolved "issues" with them? i'm only taking a shot in the dark at the moment- hang in there hun though- i'm sorry to hear about your family- i recently jus tlost my grandfather whom i was very close to- i'm keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.....