I'm hoping that once all my friends graduate from college that I won't feel as old. My little sister will call me up and tell me about all the fun greek activities that she does and the fraternity parties she goes to on the weekends; I get envious. At the same time, she couldn't go out on Saturday because she had a huge test to study for while I don't have to worry about that anymore. I have my nights and my weekends to do whatever I want and I wouldn't trade that for the world. I have more time to work out at the gym and go out with friends. It's nice.
Still, I miss the carefree days of college. I think what is so scary about becoming an adult is all the things that come with it. Marriage, new house, kids, planning for retirement. AHHHHH!!!!! One of my sorority sisters is getting married next month and I'm still in shock. It doesn't seem that long ago that we were both swapping horror stories about dates we went on the night before.
I was talking to her about her wedding when she said to me, "You and Mr.ZTAngel have been together for 3 years. You know the ring is probably coming soon." I started shaking. Then, I began to hyperventilate. After sitting down and questioning why I freaked out so much, I've realized that it was because I'm just not ready for that step in my life. And that's ok. Just because you're now an adult doesn't mean you have to do "adult stuff". It's taken me a while to realize this and I'm still learning. It's ok not to go back home straight from work and just watch TV until your bedtime....you can go to happy hour and go into work the next day feeling like crap. ("Errr, yeah boss, that damn 24 hour stomach virus. Yeah.....") I've just been so afraid that since I'm graduated from college and I'm in the working world that I can't have fun anymore. Not true! I now have more time to have fun! The only problem is I can't do all the greek stuff anymore because I'd be one of
those alum that still comes around way after graduation that everyone makes fun of.
