Hello,
I was just browsing through (being nosey) and I noticed your message. It really touched me because your situation is somewhat similar to something that has been/still is going on with my sorority. Long story. I just want to say to you that regardless of what initiation experience you went through, you are still a Kappa. Nobody can take that away from you. You know the secrets and it's up to you to learn your history. It may take going to an older Kappa who is no longer concerned with the petty things that undergraduate greeks go through. Get in contact with a Graduate advisor or someone that you can trust. Explain to them your situation and how you feel (as much as you are willing to share) and let them help you. Kappa Alpha Psi is a great organization and you obviously wanted to go that way for a reason. With time and effort to learn your history and all of the other things that you may want to learn, I'm sure that you will have that Kappa love in your heart. That is when you'll be more than happy to wear your letters. Just remember that the letters don't make the man. The man makes the letters. Good luck on your quest.
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