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I hated that so much when I was in school!! I attended all black public schools but the gifted classes and the Advanced Placement classes that I was in were mostly white, so of course I got the "you're trying to be white" and "white girl" remarks. It was bad enough that I got it at school but then to come home and get that from family too.

I remember coming home for a visit last summer and I was talking to an aunt about finishing grad school and possibly going back for a 2nd bachelors so that I could advance at my job and one of my cousins was like, "You need to stop being so white and acting like you so much more than everybody!" I went OFF!! I was like, "So what is being black? Tell me since you make it so clear that I'm not. Is it having a bunch of kids by deadbeat daddies? It is being on welfare? Is it making C's and D's and F's when you KNOW that you are capable of making A's and B's? Is it just being satisfied with being a cashier when you COULD be the manager?" I went on and on and on. I just unleashed all this anger on her because through the years she was the main one making the "white girl" comments. I know that I hurt her feelings but I just had to make her see that being black did not mean that you had to be mediocre.