I always tear up when I see threads like this.

I grew up with 4 cats, and as we lost them one by one I went through all the things you are. Several years later, I still cry sometimes when I think of them. But I know that we gave them a good life, that they were loved and gave love in return, and I'll see them one day again in Heaven.

You've got a lot of us here who know exactly what you're feeling, we've all been there, and it's perfectly natural. We'll all be thinking of Spice, and she's making lots of animal friends up in Heaven while she waits to see you again.

*hugs*