Oh honey.... you sound like me!!!!!
I recently told my ex-bf, that i talked to daily, that I loved him and I thought we had worked on our issues. He didn't think so. So now, here I am thinking.....this is it....this is the best it gets. I'll have the guys I don't want - and I have to get used to that.
But then I hear your story..... and I just want to tell you, it has to get better somehow! Before I"d rush back to my ex....I'd really think about what you want. My best friend told me "you need to be picky"...and its true. Dont' assume you'll fall in love with your ex....
Life is not easy right now for me either. This whole being single thing is so new to me. But as much as I hate it.....something good has got to come from it. So stay strong.... and maybe Mr.Right will come around the corner.....instead of Mr. MaybeRIghtbutWe'reNotforSure .
Here's the Southern Belle's Handbook guide to life. This is my favorite quote....
Rule 103. - You can't hold on to a dead relationship, but remember what Ralph Waldo Emerson said "When half-gods go/ The gods arrive."
So your god is on the way.... but don't settle for a half-god.