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Well, I came across this thread a few days ago and I've been trying to think of what I wanted to say in reply. I am also a GC member, under another name, because some of you may know me and where I go to school and I would rather just save the drama!
Lilcutie, I feel like I have been in your situation this past year especially. I joined my org. a couple years ago, but I've always questioned whether it was the right place for me. During rush, quota is always emphasized, and at times I wonder if I was invited to be a part of this sorority just to fill a slot. The girls front really well during rush, and I think this kind of suckered me in. I've only had a few friendships to come out of my affiliation with this group, and sorority life has not turned out to be what I hoped it would.
I don't want to quit though, simply because a) I DID make a promise and I feel that I should honor it, and b) I keep telling myself that it might get better someday, that there is a bigger picture outside of this chapter alone. Sometimes I feel like I'm so alone, and like I am wasting my money, because I know I'm not getting out of this organization what some of the other girls are. I don't have much in common with many of them, and even from the get-go many of the older sisters basically snubbed me while doting on some of my other pledge sisters. I joined a sorority to find acceptance, love, and friendship, and I have never really felt like my efforts were being returned.
Last year was better. I managed to get close to a few of the girls and I enjoyed myself in the sorority for the first time. But after summer, some of my so-called "friends" found a new group of friends... and had no intentions of including me in their new circle of friendship. It hurts to feel like you're being picked over, and the majority of my experience in this sorority has been more like dealing with high school cliques than genuine sisterhood.
Granted, it's had its good times, but right now I am questioning membership as well. An alumni told me to stick with it for the memories, but I am wondering if it's really worth it anymore. I just feel like nobody takes me seriously and I dont really have any true friends in the sorority anymore...
And just a note to ppl like Tom whose viewpoint I dont share... I am happy that your greek experience was so much more positive than mine, but there is only so much heart you can put into something without return before it starts to get broken. If I were to turn in my pin, I honestly think some of the girls would be more upset at the fact that there was a new slot to fill (for quota) than they would be at the fact that I was gone.
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