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Originally posted by nikki1920
That kind of hurt never goes away. I'm always consious of what I'm wearing, how I look, what I sound like around other Black people b/c of the criticisms I received from them growing up. And I shouldn't be and I am working on it.
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See, I thought it was just me. When I transitioned from a private elementary school to a public middle school, I was teased so much. People called me white girl because I spoke proper English and lived in the suburbs.
Even my close group of girlfriends teased me about the smallest things. Everyone who knows me knows that I am a fountain of random information. When I would mention something or answer a question in front of my friends, they would always say something like "of course Classy
would know something stupid like that." To this day, I find myself not responding to questions when I know the answer because I think I will be judged for being knowledgable. I know I shouldn't feel that way, but that ridicule early on has certainly stayed with me.
I trying to get better, but it will be a long and slow process before I feel totally comfortable in these situations.