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I think the hardest thing for me at my age, is to come home and see all of my friends and associates ( there's a difference!) so happy with their significant others, and see them truly enjoying thier life. I feel like it is so hard to be a 19 year old Christian woman, who's a virgin(and plans to stay one until marriage)! I've been in love with one of my good friends since the 7th grade, and it just won't go away. The worst part about it is that he is off the market, and he hasn't had the best track record with women or even his girlfriend. I've never dated him, and only brought it up once a few years ago. I've never had a boyfriend before, half because I've haven't had time, and another because I never wanted anyone but him. It sounds childish, but I can't see my liofe wthout him, because he's such a good friend, but then i can imagine the two of us together. I give so much time and energy to our friendship, and sometimes he just blows it off like it's nothing. There's more to the story, but I just don't want tpo be his doormat, but I just can't het out without ruining our friendship. Huh, what a life! It's time to go back to NC!
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