StrangeFruit,
Wow!! Thanks for sharing. It seems like you and your mother have survived/endured a lot in one lifetime. From what I can gather, sounds like the relationship that your mother had with her mother might be a parallel to your own. Plus having lost an older sibling further embittered your mother. I am truly sorry that you have had to go through this. But you know everything happens for a reason (hate to be clicheish but it is true). . . I hope that this relationship that you have with your mother will be an example of what type of mother not to be to your own children if you ever become a parent.
Do you have a mother/daughter like relationship with any older women that you know or work with? Ask God to send you that type of woman into your life because it sounds like you need one.
I am really sorry about this. Do you have a journal? You are truly in my prayers.
