Josh....
I totally understand the way you feel right now. This is my last semester before I go into Alumnae status and it has been one that has been a complete roller coaster ride. I have held many positions in my chapter, on Panhellenic, and in my other organizations, however, I have felt as if no one appreciates it. It takes a lot out of you and sometimes you have no idea what to do. I live at my house too and it always felt so good at the end of the week to just come home and get out of the place that made me feel so upset. I love my sisters, I can't say that I don't because I honestly don't know what I am going to do without them after December 15th, but there are times when there is disappointment because the chapter isn't run the way you think it should be or people let you down because something is not done and you have to make up for it. It comes with membership in an organization. A strong member is one that no matter how much you are pushed down and stomped on, you continue on and do the things that you are there to do. Strong members are those who stick around for their chapter during the good times and especially the hard times. Keep your head up Josh.....it gets better, it really does.
Have you said anything to the other officers in your chapter? Have you addressed your chapter? Let them know how you feel and how frustrated you are. Communication is important and if you feel that way, maybe other people will follow your example and speak up too. This is the only way that things will change.
Hope that helps!
