I"m sorry you are feeling so frustrated! Keep with it for a little bit longer. Remember why you joined and what your organization stands for, till you are able to feel more comfortable in your house again. Don't run away, I know guys don't always do this, but try communicating. If you do a gavel pass try talking about it then, don't attack anyone, but express how you are feeling, your brothers may just not realize how you are feeling and how their actions are causing it.
Good Luck!