Hey, everybody...I was watching the "infamous" Real World episode where Nicole gets upset (to put it mildly)
...and, I found myself getting angry just watching it...this topic was discussed extensively on another listserv that I belong to...(pinkies up).
It got me to thinking...I had just been if not happy, pretty comfortable just moments before watching that episode...This, then, caused me to think of all of the outside forces that I allow to change my happy or comfortable mood into one of anger & moodiness...
Here in NYC people cut you off all the time on the road...they push you when getting on the train...waitresses & waiters can be beyond rude...co-workers say things or do things that seem outrageous & inappropriate...even here, as well as on other listservs & at work you read things that have NOTHING to do with you whatsoever...but you get angry anyway...Why?
My Dad is always saying don't give that power to anyone...but, how do I fight the urge to inflict the same hurt & feeling of discomfort on the person who caused me the pain (or who I perceive is causing me pain)...
Now, having a short temper has always been my achilles heel (since I was a youngin')...So, I had started consciuosly withholding my reactions when people cut me off...and, speaking softly (still smiling) at the co-worker that tries to unnerve me...Even when I read a post where someone says something I thing is uncalled for, I just say "it's just words & that person has a right to say that...fuggedaboutit"...
Well, guess what happens...I grind my teeth in my sleep & have headaches...or worse, I go off for a little "nothing" reason. I'm like dag..I'm d@mned if I react & d@mned if I don't...
I don't want to feel road rage, train rage, work rage, cafe rage, e-rage, but it's a hard habit to break (mentally & physically it seems), ya know?
Anywho...I had to get rid of that anger I was feeling from watching RW...so, I started typing...I feel a little better..maybe I'll watch some of my old tapes of Def Comedy Jam to get back happy again!
I'll know if it worked tomorrow if my teeth don't ache
