[PM_Mama00]

I duno if I can really say that I'm mad.

I'm kinda mad at God right now. My best friend's father went into critical condition a few weeks ago. He had double pneumonia, paralyzed in one leg, and he might've had a blood disease (in which he would have passed in the next few days) or leukemia. He got transferred to a better hospital. He had some illness that gets treated like leukemia.

Yesterday he passed away. I'm mad for my best friend's family. I'm mad that her father was taken at the age of 60. I'm mad that she couldn't spend more time with him. I'm mad at her and her two sisters won't have a father to walk them down the aisle at their weddings. I'm mad that he won't get to see her younger sister in all the plays and musicals that she's in, or see her graduate, or see her older sister graduate from med school. I'm mad that her mother now has to spend her nights alone. I'm mad at God for taking her father away.

And most of all, I'm mad that a lot of times my father and I argue and I'm sometimes mean and that I just keep thinking now that anytime this could happen to my family. And I'm mad that after 2 days I can finally shed the tears for my best friend and lil sis, that I've been holding in.