[KDAngel]

Oh darling, I'm SO sorry you're going through all this. And while I don't know your WHOLE situation I can relate to you sooo well. Last fall I was diagnosed with ovarian cysts that I didn't tell anyone about. I started doing poorly in school, etc and after finishing up the semester horribly my parents took me home for the Spring 2003 semester.

I thought my world was over. And then I start telling my sisters and it seemed like NO one cared. My big put forth some effort, but it was terrible when you have 60+ sisters and no one acts like they care. All Spring I contemplated coming back to KD. Then, I was diagnosed with ovarian cancer and my really did come to a screeching halt from how I once knew it. But then, KD became the thing I desired more than anything. I wanted to get back there and and make a difference. I wanted to be someone to all the other girls to come in and all my sisters and support them through thick and thin and never let ANYONE feel the way I did.

Okay, so point being, I came back and while people STILL hurt me and neglect to ask how things are and act like they really care, I know my ultimate purpose to explemify Ta Kala Diokomen and AOT to each girl in my chapter.

I encourage you to stick it through though. While I didn't wanna call people out and tell them they were hurting me, I finally did and they were CLUELESS. Stop and tell your big how you're feeling. I won't be easy but she needs to know. If you're going through a tough time your chapter needs to be there for you and perhaps you're doing such a good job of covering up your pain and problems that they don't know. OR they're too scared to step in and ask questions and what not. Ya know? And since you're not yet a sister, they may be even more apprehensive to jump so much into your personal life. But hun, don't give up KD. You joined for a reason and by your post I can tell that you're one awesome girl that I'd be proud to call a sister.

Look deep within and find the courage to carry on. At least for now. Don't give up hope on your future sisters just yet. Kappa Delta is the BEST experience I've ever had and despite it's ups and downs I would never have the heart to leave it. And I hope you can come to the same. Know that when you are initiated you have sisters all over the country for support. And hey, be the sister that you want them to be. Be there for people, be open, be understanding- be what our great founders invisioned.

And hey, I want you to know all about AOT! So if you need to talk more or anything, pm me and I'll email/IM you.

*sorry for the book!!

In all my Kappa Delta Love and AOT,
Liz