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Okay guys....Pref was probably the most emotional night I've had since my boyfriend left for college. I spent at least 45 minutes, it could have been an hour, sitting out on the blacktop thinking about what I had to do. I was invited back by both Alice and Ariel because I guess I am just incredibly lucky.
At Alice, I felt so special and honored to be there, and I saw so many friendly, familiar faces and felt sort of tingly the whole hour. I am so comfortable here and I really had to stop myself from crying when one of the seniors talked about when her father died, how her sisters drove her to and from the airport and supported her and everything that they did for her. That's exactly what I'm looking for in a sorority and what she said truly touched me. I left feeling so happy and honestly, I knew in my heart when I left that I wanted them.
Then I went to Ariel, and the girl who was preffing me was soooo sweet that in the beginning it just broke my heart to think I'd have to say no to her and her sisters. I really, really feel at home here TOO!!! Is that possible, to feel totally at home in two different houses?! She told me how much she thought that I totally fit in with them already, how much they were (supposedly) "fighting" over who got to pref me!! I was so flattered and at the end of the night I just started bawling...but I think that my tears and overall emotional state were products of not eating anything for the past two days AND guilt in my heart, because I think I knew deep down that I preferred Alice.
So after my 45 minutes of deliberation and talks with my recruitment counselor, I listed them as Alice first, and Ariel second. Honestly, even as I'm typing this I'm still not sure I did the right thing. They are two different groups of girls who suit different sides of my personality. And the president of Alice (who I love and adore hahahahaha) said quite clearly, "We don't want you to come in and be like us...we want you to come in and be who you are." That was so comforting to me. And even if Alice ends up cutting me, and I get Ariel, I know I will still be happy because I love those girls too. I hope, in whatever organization I end up joining, I keep the friends that I've made these last three days. Big sigh.
Okay I'm going to go do my (ughhh) homework now. THANK YOU SO MUCH just for being here. It helps so immensely to write it all down. I hope I get some more sleep tonight than I did last night!!
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