[RebelSong84]

Alright. I have done a complete 180 degree turn from what I have been thinking the whole time. This afternoon I was talking to a girl in red before we went up to school and she really made me see that they have such a strong sisterhood. That impresses me so much. One thing I was thinking about, but trying to block out of my mind about purple was that the girl I was talking to last night said something like "This sorority is just like any other group. There are cliques and there are some girls names that I still don't know after a year." That kind of bothered me a little bit and today I was really trying to sit down and think which group I would want if I could pick any of them. The red chapter just became more and more appealing to me and I was thinking about how much I loved the girl from last night and how sincere everyone was. But anyways, Im getting off track. I still loved purple, but I just was getting this feeling..

So I show up at school tonight. Everyone was all dressed up and looked great. I looked at the sheet that showed which parties we were going back to and I was cut from purple... and it was so weird because before I felt like I didnt have a chance with red because they are one of the most wanted groups.. ya know.. so I guess that I had myself convinced this whole time that I should just forget about it because they would cut me anyway. But they didn't and i went to their preference party tonight.

I was paired with a different girl than last night. This one was just as awesome though. The whole room was black and they had little tables set up with ginger ale in champagne glasses.. and they sat us down and talked one on one with us. the girl was so sweet and cool. her telling me how much the girls meant to her was so moving. the president, who is a senior, made a speech to her sisters and to us about how much she loved them and everything. some girls sang this really sad song. they had given us little necklaces with the letters on them to wear during the party and afterwards we placed them up on the table before we left.

Going to this party and seeing the way the girls care about each other really made me feel something inside for sororities in general and especially for the red group. When I walked out of the room I had tears coming out of my eyes just because it was so overwhelming. My pi chi gave me a tissue and I felt kind of dumb for crying. But my decision was made.

Throughout this whole process, my mind has gone from one side to the other and back again. Before rush I really loved the red group. But then I thought that I didnt have a chance there, so I thought maybe blue was the place for me. Then for awhile I was all about the purple group. But now, I realize, that red is really the group that I would be most comfortable with. And that is what I want if Im going to join a sorority. This has definitly been a good experience for me. I will find out tomorrow morning if I have gotten a bid or not. Im not too confident, but I have a lot of wishes and hope that tomorrow I can become a New Member of the chapter I have shared tonight with. If I dont get a bid, I will be dissappointed, but more than anything, this has shown me that whatever is meant to happen will happen. You cant go in there trying to plan everything out, because its going to go how its supposed to.

I will write as soon as I find out.

<3 Kalie